There’s a Reason We Stopped Doing MySpace Surveys

Hello, dear readers.

It’s been a while.

And I have no excuse for it. I could lie and say that life got in the way of my writing here, but I’ve had time to tweet excessively, and I’ve kept up with posting on Instagram at least once a day.

But this here blog, the one place on the internet I’m spending money for the privilege of using… hasn’t been updated in over a month now.

Oops.

I guess I’ll blame it on writer’s block, because I honestly have not had much motivation. I’ve started a few posts that I almost immediately scrapped – maybe I’ll return to them someday, but let me tell y’all that one of them was my feelings toward death and it was going to a Place?? It was wild. Maybe I’ll revisit it for Halloween.

ANYWAY. I can’t just let this blog sit here with nothing new on it. I’m going old school and forcing myself to write SOMETHING today… by way of one of those janky old “surveys” we all remember from our MySpace and LiveJournal days. Let’s go.

Questions to Really Get to Know Someone

1. Are you a morning or night person? Truthfully, a mix of both. I think as I’ve gotten older, I’ve become more of a morning person, but I also still really like late night conversations and things (when I can stay up late enough…).

2. Which do you prefer, sweet or salty foods? Neither. Give me savory snacks. Beef jerky, pepperoni, roasted chick peas, etc.

3. Ninjas or pirates? Okay first of all, what was WITH the early 2000s? I feel like questions like this were everywhere. I suppose I’ll say pirates, but like, not the gross Johnny Depp-type. Just cool ones.

4. Ninjas vs pirates. Discuss. …No thank you? (Guys, I’m beginning to regret this post idea and I’m only four questions in…)

5. Autobots or Decipticons? So I guess I should have at least skimmed the questions in this survey before I picked it.

6. What was your favorite childhood television program? I was a PBS kid (with a little Nickelodeon mixed in). Hell, I’ll still watch Sesame Street if there’s nothing else on.

7. Are you a collector of anything? My office is full of little collections! I love knick knacks. Shot glasses are definitely my most active – I try to get one wherever I travel/visit/etc and I’m well over 60 from the past 12 or so years. I also collect Pop Funko and stuffed animal Winnie the Poohs.

8. If you could be any animal, what would you be? My favorite animals are hippos and zebras, so I guess one of them would be alright.

9. If you could have any superpower, what would it be? Flight, without a doubt. I have too much wanderlust for my bank account.

10. What is usually your first thought when you wake up? Gratitude.

11. What do you usually think about right before falling asleep? Probably just hope that I actually DO fall asleep. I’m not good at sleeping.

12. What’s your favorite color? Green, I think. Also pink.

13. What’s your favorite animal? Okay, see now I’m realizing how lousy of a read this post is going to be. Sorry, y’all.

14. Do you believe in life on other planets? Absolutely. Ignorance of that is just ridiculous.

15. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes.

16. Ever been addicted to video/computer games? If so, which ones? I feel like the original Sims and Roller Coaster Tycoon were made in such a way that you HAD to be addicted to them to actually accomplish anything (read: drown your housemates and fling your entire theme parks’ worth of guests off a coaster).

17. You’re given one million dollars. What do you spend it on? I’d pay off my student loans, then finally buy a car. I’d put the rest toward travel and little improvements around our house.

18. Have any bad habits? I pick at the skin around my fingernails (then get mad at myself for doing so). I recently got a fidget cube, though, which has been a significant help!

19. Which bad habits, if any, drive you crazy? I can’t stand the sound of people loudly chewing food, to the point it actually makes me angry.

20. List three of your best personality traits. I’d like to think I’m resilient, typically optimistic, and a damn good cheerleader for my friends.

21. List three of your worst personality traits. I hate to say it but I know I have lazy tendencies. Also, my optimism often comes back to bite me in the ass. Aaaand I can be judgmental, as much as I try to fight it.

22. Have any celebrity crushes? *looks up at the massive Dave Grohl poster that takes up almost an entire wall of my office* hmm? Who? (also, Jon Hamm and Seth Meyers).

23. What’s one thing you wish you could change about yourself? Physically? My stomach. Otherwise? I wish I hadn’t gone to college. Sincere money drain.

24. Any tattoos or piercings? Just my ears. I’ve wanted several tattoos over the years, but with my crazy skin issues (oh, maybe that should have been my answer for the previous question – I hate how sensitive my skin has become), I’m too scared to go for one.

25. What’s the first thing you notice in the opposite sex? Hair, definitely.

26. What personality traits do you look for in a partner? My husband’s sense of humor plays perfectly off mine. He’s also terrifically supportive and hard-working.

27. What personality traits do you dislike in other people? I’m SO here for self-confidence, but when it crosses into the territory where you’re only impressed by your own actions and thoughts, give me a break.

28. Do you see yourself getting married in the next five years? Aw, remember doing these surveys in high school and shuddering at the thought of these questions?

29. Are you mostly a clean or messy person? Okay, see, I think that clean and messy aren’t exactly opposites. Clean and dirty are, and I am definitely clean. My office may look like messy chaos, but I know where everything is, so.

30. If you could live anywhere, where would you live? As evidenced in my last post, I love living in Erie, but I’m not ruling anything out for my future.

31. If you could visit anywhere in the world, where would you go? I still want to visit the Mediterranean and Amsterdam, as well as the Pacific Northwest and all of the National Parks.

32. List five goals on your life’s to-do list. Oh, I always disliked questions like this. I’m not one to itemize my life – it’s why I don’t see myself ever having anything resembling a traditional career. I like living and experiencing every moment put in front of me. Clearly, travel is important to me, and I want to freelance more.

33. Name one regret you have. Oh, I already did this. I regret going to college.

34. Name one thing you miss about being a kid. Making movies with my neighborhood friends.

35. Name one thing you love about being an adult. Finally having a house that I can decorate and enjoy the way I’ve always wanted to.

36. What’s your favorite song at the moment? Harry Styles ‘Carolina’.

37. What’s your favorite song of all time? It’s a tie between the Foo’s ‘Times Like These’ and U2’s ‘October’.

38. What’s your favorite thing to do on a Saturday night? Sleep. I’m old.

39. What’s your favorite thing to do on a Sunday afternoon? Take my cameras out and go exploring.

40. Have any hidden talents? I can sort of twirl a baton…? Oh, and I can make balloon animals!

41. If you knew it was your last, what would be your last meal? Literally anything from Salvatore’s Italian Gardens, in Buffalo, NY.

42. What would be your dream job? I would love to someday make enough freelancing that I didn’t need my college bookstore job, but like I said, I’m not one to wish for a career.

43. What would you rather have, 100 million dollars or true love? Since I already found my true love and he’s not going anywhere, can I have the money?

44. If you could have three wishes granted, what would they be? That money in the last question sure would make things easier. I’d also wish for some sort of guidance to help our country through all this, and maybe just… time. Enough time in this life to do all the things I want to do, with the people I love.

45. Ever wish you had been the opposite gender? Not really. Also, strict gender roles are dumb. Do what you want.

46. Name one thing not many people know about you. It’s funny to me that so many of my current friends know nothing of my theater history. I was in over 50 musicals and plays, and stage managed 15 or so more. I once had the lead role of a musical written for me! I got to yell in the face of the director of the local community theater!

47. If you had to change your first name, what would you change it to? Oh, I don’t know. Being Meredith for almost 30 years now makes it difficult for me to picture being anyone else.

48. Do you believe in the afterlife? Sort of? I don’t know. I know that spirits don’t really leave us.

Okay, there you have it. Some dumb questions (sorry about my half-assed answers…) that probably didn’t enrich you or this blog in any way. But, this is the longest I’ve spent typing anything in the past month, so we’ll call this post a tiny victory. Have a wonderful Memorial Day, readers!

100 Things is a Lot of Things

Hi all!

My last post was a way for you, dear reader, to get to know my blog. This post? Getting to know me. My dear friend Lexie (check out her brilliant blog!) did a post like this a while back and it remains my favorite on her site. Also, it reminds me of my glory days on MySpace.

So, without further ado, here’s 100 things about me. My hope is some (maybe all?) of these will prompt future posts – if there’s something that sparks your interest here, please comment and let me know, and I will queue up a full-length post… maybe even 100 posts will follow!

    1. I started my first blog in 2002, on DiaryLand.com (the fact that they have literally never updated the look of the website brings me so much joy). I was a freshman in high school, we had just gotten the internet in our house (oh, AOL dial-up…), and the blog was a literal MESS. I actually recently found my way back to DLand and deleted it… after reading through the entire thing and feeling so much second-hand embarrassment at 14-year-old me. High school was a weird time in the early 2000s. I had a lot of weird feelings back then. I think that’s all that needs to be said about that.
    2. Speaking of high school, I went to a well-known private school that, except for a decade that included my time there, is for girls only. I wish, all the time, that it was girls only while I was there, too.
    3. I’ve lived in the same city my entire life. There was a period of about two years when I was bent on moving to either NYC or Chicago, but for at least the foreseeable future, I’m quite content here. A lot of people look at my city as a place you need to escape and stay well away from, but I see revitalization happening everywhere. It’s exciting!
    4. Previous point being said, my husband and I share terrific wanderlust. He’s traveled to Seattle and Vancouver twice now and I’m itching to join him on a return trip; I know I’ll love it there. I wouldn’t be surprised if we someday move west.
    5. When I was a kid, I obsessively wrote a book called “A Story.” It detailed fiction adventures of my group of friends. I now realize that I could have gone outside and actually done things with said friends…
    6. I was absolutely one of those “indoor kids” (thanks, Wet Hot American Summer, for the title and affirmation that I’ll be okay!).
    7. I firmly believe that Wet Hot American Summer is the best comedy movie of all time.
    8. Water gives me the worst anxiety. I can’t swim and was always too anxious to even begin to learn. Boats make me sick – not from the motion, but from the crippling fear. Basically, don’t invite me to your pool party. I won’t be there.
    9. I have developed some motion sickness as I’ve gotten older, and it sucks. Goodbye, reading on planes!
    10. I guess I could amend #8 and just say that I have horrific anxiety. Pair that with severe chronic depression that started in 4th grade – I’m a delight!
    11. The comedian Chris Gethard (who I can also call a dear friend) showed me the importance of owning your issues. Realizing that they don’t limit me in any regard was the moment I started recovering.
    12. My dad is a recovering gambling addict. He now runs the recovery program he went through, and speaks at GA conventions across the state. I don’t think I’ll ever admire another person more. This also means that, with my own issues, I’m predisposed to become a literal disaster of a person!
    13. Okay, things are getting too heavy. My favorite band is the Foo Fighters. Dave Grohl is my man.
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    14. My favorite band used to be U2. I’ll still burst into tears if you play With or Without You, or anything off the album October.
    15. Real talk, I’ll burst into tears for any reason. It’s something about myself I’ve come to love. Feeling feelings is important, y’all!
    16. Last summer, I had lunch with Kevin Nealon. We happened to be in Cleveland at the same time, and we share a mutual friend. Meet your heroes, guys. He was so kind and funny (duh). Also, he is every inch as tall as he looks on TV.
    17. I never broke a bone as a kid (see #6), but starting at age 22, I broke my left big toe, then my right foot twice in two years. Adulthood has been good to me.
    18. My first camera was one of these bad boys. It took many a picture of my American Girl doll. Fast forward 20 years and the technology got better, but my passion for photography hasn’t changed one bit.
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    19. Today, I have an arsenal of five cameras. A Canon Rebel T5 (aka my baby), two Canon Powershots (one is always on my person), a little yellow Fujifilm Instax, and an old Canon 35mm Sureshot that shoots the sort of perfect contrast and saturation us Instagram kids work for.
    20. Theater used to be my LIFE. The church I used to attend started a theater group when I was just a shy 9-year-old who enjoyed choir. By 17, I had performed in over 20 musicals and started stage managing. At 28, I’ve sworn off theater (the stress, you guys) and returned three separate times. I’m not sure if I’ll make any more comebacks at this point – my favorite director always told us to leave it all on the stage – and I’m satisfied with the experiences I’ve had.
    21. I’m super particular with my Starbucks order. No shame.
    22.  I’m an award-winning poet. Humblebragging isn’t usually my style, but it’s my website and it’s a cool fact about me!
    23. I’ve never listened to Hamilton. I… don’t have an explanation as to why not. Like I said, I’m a recovering theater kid. And I adore LMM. But… there you have it.
    24. Mad Men is my favorite TV show, followed closely by Parks and Recreation, Gilmore Girls, and Arrested Development.
    25. As I said in my About page, I’m a reluctant user of the Oxford comma. I’ve lost track already of how many times I’ve had to edit previous points on here to add one. I haaate it. It’s clunky.
    26. Nothing is more intoxicating to me than clean hotel smell.
    27. I love my iPhone but real talk, I miss my Blackberry. I loved that clicky little keyboard.
    28. I used to work at a zoo, and a dance and skate supply store. I definitely retained too much (useless) knowledge from each, so if you ever need someone to size figure skates or detail the process of admitting school tour groups to a zoo, I’m your girl.
    29. If you tell (or laugh at, for that matter) sexist or racist jokes, I don’t want anything to do with you.
    30. I’m confident that my current circle of friends will be life-long. I’m usually right when I go with my gut.
    31. I knew three weeks into our relationship that Scott was the one.
    32. If something begins to feel anything but right to me, I drop it. Life is a terrifically fragile thing, and I don’t want to spend mine feeling anything but happy and fulfilled (or on the path to fulfillment, at the very least).
    33. I don’t like lunch. Let me eat breakfast food always, please.
    34. Flowers are my favorite subject to photograph. I love the way their appearance changes depending how you focus your lens. I love adjusting their saturation and watching details shift.
    35. If I didn’t have to drive in the snow, winter would be my favorite season.
    36. My hair has been every color you can think of over the years; it’s currently as close to my natural color as it’s been since I started dyeing it.
    37. I have a really bad habit of buying ALL THE LIPSTICK!!! and then rarely wearing any.
    38. I’m not on Facebook, for a multitude of reasons, namely my hatred for the forced, fake interactions that have become its norm. Like, if you want to keep up with me, actually put forth some effort!
    39. Savory snacks are all I care about. I can take or leave sweets and I haaate salty food.
    40. Winnie the Pooh is my favorite Disney character (Jiminy Cricket and Yzma follow closely).
    41. I haaate confrontation, which makes my supervisor position at work a great time. I’ll just leave conveniently-placed notes to deal with small issues if I can help it.
    42. My skin is ridiculously sensitive. Scott and I went to Outback Steakhouse for our first date. I didn’t know it at the time, but there’s something in their famous seasoning that I’m allergic to (just add it to my list…). A few hours after I got home from that date, my entire. body. broke out in hives, and since then, breakouts still flare up on my face every evening! This was three years ago!! Having skin is fun!
    43. I can’t stand country music.
    44. I never drank (or currently drink) alcohol to get drunk, which made me super popular (hah) in college. I like the taste of wine, so I often drink it with dinner.
    45. The psychology of dreams has always fascinated me, and unless I’m exhausted or sick, I can almost always lucid dream.
    46. The power couple that is Ted Danson and Mary Steenburgen gives me so much hope.
    47. I used to be obsessed with Ty Pennington… so when Extreme Makeover: Home Edition came to my city, I stood in the rain (in a really terrible part of town) for two full days. I high-fived Ty. It was awesome. Here’s a picture of him running toward me before said high-five. I’m glad my photography skills have improved.
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    48. I’m super not a dog person, and I love cats, but I’m definitely not a pet person.
    49. I’m also not a kid person. Finding a husband who feels the same way was huge for me!
    50. I really, really, really like tattoos, and I’ve planned several for myself, but I don’t have any and am not sure if I would get them. See my skin sensitivity in #42 and also my immense fear of needles.
    51. Back in my dating days (if they could even be called that?), I only put myself in cliche bar situations a few times… one of those ended abruptly because I confidently told the guy I was probably too good for him. Easily one of the proudest moments of my life.
    52. I met Julie Andrews a few years ago. She is every bit as lovely in person as you would hope. Even though it was ridiculously hot out, she was rocking a linen pantsuit, and she told me to get an ice cream cone (I did).
    53. I didn’t get my glasses until I was 21. The vision in my right eye isn’t too bad – and hasn’t worsened – but my left eye has gotten progressively worse since high school. Even though I’ve only had glasses for seven years, I barely recognize myself without them now, and likely won’t ever consider getting contacts (I do miss sunglasses, though) (prescription sunglasses just aren’t the same!).
    54. I’m the least flexible person you’ll ever know. I can hardly do a somersault. I took a dance class (to get out of gym, so it was very casual) in high school and the teacher made me attempt a cartwheel… I sobbed. Good times.
    55. Socks are gross and I hate them. I’ll wear my shoes without socks until it’s entirely too cold out.
    56. That being said, I love boots more than most things, so I’ll deal with socks if it means it’s boot season!
    57. Superhero movies do not interest me in any way. I saw Dark Knight because everyone was, but that’s literally it. The internet is a lonely place for me when a new blockbuster is out.
    58. Harry Potter and Star Wars are my JAMS, though.
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    59. My birthday is 1/09, and my best friend AND husband’s are both 9/01. I definitely have a thing for numbers, so when I learned that about them, I knew we were fated to be together for a long time to come.
    60. Get the whole 13th-zodiac-sign nonsense away from me. I’m a proud Capricorn. And yes, I do believe in that crap.
    61. I also fully believe in ghosts, tarot, yetis, and the other stuff you probably consider nonsense.
    62. Touching money absolutely disgusts me. Real glad I work in retail. I guess it’s a good thing I got turned down for the bank teller job I applied for a few years back?
    63. There is a frozen yogurt shop in my neighborhood (walking distance, y’all), which is simultaneously the greatest and curse and blessing on this great earth.
    64. My favorite movie of all time is The Parent Trap. The summer the VHS came out, I watched it every. single. day. (I’m not exaggerating) and can still recite the entire movie word-for-word. My heart swells when I think of Dennis and Natasha in that last scene.
    65. If it was financially possible, I would take a Lush bath every night. Give me ALL the bath bombs!
    66. A few years ago, I was asked (rather rudely) if I was ever going to find a “real job.” What I do at the bookstore does sometimes get tedious and occasionally isn’t much more than standard retail nonsense, but it’s the right fit for me, right now. I love that I don’t have to take my work home with me, and I love getting to interact with people from all over campus. Plus, having time to focus on writing and photography is everything I could have asked for!
    67. I love getting (and sending) cards and handwritten notes (…as I’m writing this post, our wedding thank you notes are just waiting to be written!).
    68. I’ve taken the Myers-Briggs test every year since 2006 and have never been anything but an ENFJ, which makes me laugh, because staying so staunchly true to myself is a very ENFJ trait.
    69. My randomly-generated email address for work is “mac69” and nothing makes me more uncomfortable than when I have to give it out.
    70. I distinctly remember, at my very first rehearsal for a musical ever, I sat myself down next to a rather popular teenager (I was 10 at the time) and talked with her about cottage cheese. My… social skills have not improved much since.
    71. Scott got me hooked on The Dan Le Batard Show and if you would have told me two years ago that a sports talk radio show would become one of my favorite things, I would have laughed in your face.
    72. My favorite commercial of all time (that’s a thing, I swear) is this Christmas one from Eat n’ Park. Makes me cry whenever I see it, in the best way.
    73. When I worked at the zoo, I discovered that I am wicked good at crossword puzzles.
    74. I have a small collection of stuffed animals that mean as much to me at 28 as they did when I was a kid.
    75. Back in the MySpace days (and even into Tumblr), I taught myself basic HTML. I’ve since forgotten nearly all of it (and just had a near-nightmare with the formatting of this post).
    76. I also used to be able to play some basic guitar chords… that skill is also long gone.
    77. I desperately want to learn to play drums.
    78. My favorite episode of TV, ever, is “Dinner Party” from The Office.
    79. My favorite song is Foo Fighters’ “Times Like These.” (Can you tell I’m struggling to come up with facts?)
    80. Last unnecessary fave, I promise. My favorite animals are hippos and zebras.
    81. My main bad habit is playing with my jewelry… which has become a sincere issue since my engagement and wedding rings were added to the mix. Can’t tell you how many times they’ve almost flown away in public.
    82. I’m totally a Carrie. …is that too dated of a reference? How old am I?
    83. I always self-sorted as Hufflepuff, but Pottermore put me in Ravenclaw.
    84. Thanks to my old TV from the 70s, I grew up with only five channels, so I learned to love PBS. Their old block of British comedies on Saturday nights were my everything. Are You Being Served? is my forever favorite.
    85. Buffalo, New York holds the most special place in my heart. My family used to spend our happiest weekends up there all the time when I was a kid, and eventually I started taking Scott there – most importantly, it’s where he proposed!
    86. I am terrible at sleeping! Which sucks, because as I said in a previous point, I love dreaming. I take forever to fall asleep, I wake up super easily, and no matter what time I fall asleep, I’m awake by 7am. No. Matter. What.
    87. If I smell or even just think about buffalo chicken, I need buffalo chicken.
    88. I love love love liminal spaces. Airports, train stations and the like. I love existing in places that otherwise would never see me.
    89. I once had the lead role in a musical written for me. It was exhilarating and terrifying and I’m not sure if anything will ever top the rush I got when I realized I had performed the role successfully.
    90. I was a Girl Scout until it was waaay past being cool anymore – I quit in the 11th grade. I loved the dynamic of my troop. Instead of camping, we would gather our cookie money and travel to Niagara Falls!
    91. My laptop is neon pink and I’m not sure if I’ve loved an electronic more.
    92. I name my electronics after The Office and Parks & Rec nicknames and characters. My phone is Michael Scarn, my laptop is Li’l Sebastian, one iPod is Big Tuna, and the other is Ethel Beavers.
    93. I collect shot glasses. I started my senior year of high school and now have over 70, from my travels, around my city, and from friends as gifts.
    94. The Lonely Island era of SNL feels like home to me.
    95. I learned how to play pool a few years ago and I am very pleased to say, I can hold my own.
    96. My best Halloween costume ever was when I did Jack Sparrow. I know I will never ever be able to top this.
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    97. Despite my ongoing issues with depression, I am absolutely an optimist.
    98. I live for comfortable silences with dear friends.
    99. When I started this list, I had no idea where I would go with these facts, but I have to say I’m thrilled. I have so many ideas already for future posts and I hope I’ve sparked some interest for you, reading this.
    100. I can finally, truly, and confidently say that I am happy. I love this feeling.

So… there you have it! 100 things about me. I’m exhausted. Byeee!

Sundays are for Blogging

I woke up this morning in a bit of a panic and it took me a few moments to figure out why. For the past several months, my otherwise lazy weekend mornings were full of wedding prep (which amazed me, with how simple our plans really were)… and this is our first weekend at home as a married couple! Side note, our honeymoon now feels like it was a full decade ago; I’m already jonesing for a return trip to the happiest place on earth.

So, it’s time to get this blog rolling. I’m not sure that there’ll be a ton of content in this post, so bear with me. I need to sort of publicly lay things out for myself, because if I don’t have the accountability of the internet, lord knows I will abandon this blog like all my previous attempts!

If you’ve glanced at my About page (or if you know me in real life), you know I have a lot of varied interests. My hope is that this blog becomes a place where I can share them all. I’m talking, an entire post devoted to why I’m so disappointed the Steelers are doing away with their bumblebee uniforms, followed by some emotional mess about Steve Martin, followed by a beauty product review. And if I go on a photo adventure (or even just a nice walk, let’s be real), I’m going to share that here. I’m not the kind of woman to limit myself, and this blog shouldn’t be any different!

That being said, I’m likely going to be asking for help, especially as things get started. My dedicated writing skills are sorely out of shape – I wrote nearly constantly in college but that was six (oh my god) years ago. Obviously, I would like my posts here to have a little more substance than a thread of tweets. I also want to post weekly. Maybe I’ll get to a point where I can crank out posts on the daily? Who knows. Until then, one post a week – likely on Sundays – and I will try my best to focus on one topic or idea per post.

Help me grow this, guys. If you have things you’d like to hear my take on (or things you know I have a lot of thoughts on), tell me! I’m excited for what this website will become.

Wedding Week

I’m writing this post on Wednesday, October 5. My wedding is in two days.

Holy crap.

If you’ve known me for longer than three years, you’ve no doubt been subject to tales of my relationship woes. If you haven’t, let me give you a quick run down! My dating history is pretty bleak – the younger brother of my best friend at the time’s now-husband was my first boyfriend. Our relationship consisted of a handful of real dates since he lives an hour away… and ended the week after we got into a car accident AND he sent a singing telegram to me. In high school. Where I was already terrifically insecure and prone to embarrassment. Then came my falling in what I thought was love with an incredible man who turned out to be one of my best friends (he’s singing at my wedding!). Theeen there was the time I got into a weird love triangle (??) and messed up a friendship because of a guy who was an emotional wreck. And then came the long-distance thing that we called a relationship but let’s be real, we just liked to text sweet things to each other. And THEN there was my only real, hang-out-always, spend-hours-baring-souls, truly committed relationship… that ended after four months because we were in VERY different stages in our lives!

…and all of this happened before 2009 was half over.

So.

Now it’s nearing the end of 2016 and, like I said, my wedding is in two days. I’ve been madly in love with this goofy, sweet guy since September 2013.

Those dark years, though? April 2009 until September 2013? I was confident that love wasn’t for me. I’ve been through a lot of sincere crap that essentially destroyed my ability to trust people, with very few exceptions. This is just my intro post, though (oh my god, this is the worst intro post, ever), so I’ll save that for when you’re all committed to this blog and I can’t scare you away.

Enter Scott.

The way love happens is sincerely ridiculous, and I mean that in the kindest way. Our meeting was chance – I almost didn’t stick with the job where we both still work. I’m talking, I didn’t show up for my first day, then had a panic attack in the parking lot the morning of my second day. He almost quit, numerous times, over the years! But he didn’t. And I finally composed myself and walked into work. And I think we both started falling in love right from the start, but it took nine months and the not-so-gentle prodding from our dear friend to get us to realize it.

And now here we are, two days from our wedding. Everything is planned and ready. Our kitchen is full of utensils and pop and I need to get our cornhole set out of storage to lug to our reception location. I’m jittery and unfocused at work, which is why I decided to write my first post just a little early.

I’ll have a photo-heavy wedding recap post, and eventually one for our honeymoon, and that’ll be it before this blog really gets rolling – I needed to give myself something new to be focused on once our planning is finally over! I can’t wait for what this blog becomes. I’m excited to share my life with you all.

Happy wedding week to us!

Photo taken by Kat Ritenour, katritenour.com